Why do guys have to be so damn difficult...

You tell a guy you like them but they don't like you because your to nice....

So I try to loosen up a bit...and nothing what the hell.

I don't know if I'm trying to hard or not hard enough. I feel like Mouth from One Tree Hill did in high school. Always has the friends and never the girl well in my case a guy...

I just don't get it, I try to the best of my ability to be my self but for some reason its just too nice.

I never thought that could be possible. Too nice really?? Why does this have to be so difficult.

Is it so bad that I would like to start dating. I think not. I haven't had a relationship in 3 years. And I don't know if I would really call it that anyways...there was no communication.. I talked to a guy, whom I loved dearly for a year. But lets face it, he was just to old for me.  I need to talk to guys that are closer to my age. 

I fell like I have lots of guy friends, maybe that is the problem do they consider me "just one of the guys?"

What do I have to do to be noticed? Cause what I'm doing is not working..

Well....

This weekend was fun, but I did some stupid things. I'm not going to regret them because I do not believe in regret but I am going to learn from these choices I made. If you want more detail and have my number feel free to text me.

St. Pete

The St. Pete race is exactly ONE MONTH away! I'm so excited I can not contain myself. It is going to be one heck of a season. I just hope Anthony can find some kind of sponsor ship in the next month. It will be hard to not see him full time in a car...

Best Weekend Ever

Mario and I

This weekend was awesome! I went to Wheelers birthday party at 6. That was a blast!! I had a lot of fun. :D

Olivia and I

Some girls and I

Morgan and I

Morgan and I

Next Weekend

So I'm pretty excited about next weekend. Can't wait should be a blast :)

Edit to the last post.

He is out of jail now and we had a really good talk last night. It was very good, we actually held a conversation for more than 15 mins.

So...

Right now, I have no intentions of getting back with him...but I am going to be his friend because right now he needs one...

Better

I'M MUCH BETTER NOW!

I still don't know.....

But I do know, I have been stupid for these past 5 years. No matter how bad he hurt me i still took him back. I was very upset that he is in jail, but now I know the full story, he took another girl on a date after telling me he loves me....BULL! I'm so mad and i'm glad he is in jail. I know thats horrible to say but i hope he learns his lesson this time; however, I will not take him back. I'm done for good. I will pray for him because he has had a rough life but he made his own decisions he did this to himself and i truely hope he gets better, but it won't ever be with me again..........

I just don't even know anymore.....

I just found out that the one person I have truly loved is in jail. He won't be getting out until May.
I am completely crushed, mad, furious, upset, disappointed, betrayed. I just have no clue what to do.....

:(

So Gen moved out today.
It makes me very upset.
I think I have a commitment problem....
I start class on Monday and I really don't want to...
On the bright side I got a 3.1 1st semester,
and i was able to declare my major and minor!!
That is all for now!!